WB Rants: I'm An Asshole.

 Werebelushi:

The rant that I was going to do can't be viewed here, however you can read it on Furaffinity, basically in that rant I said that I am legitimately sorry along with Nathan for offeding and doing all that shit that caused the artist/person we both admire to block us and that I agree with that person and that Nathan did vilify his former bestie by portraying her as a bitch who gets her comeuppance by being turned into a Pokemon, oh sure...she totally was fine wth being turned against her own will in RPs into other forms but not in the case of being shunned just because Nathan couldn't cope with leaving her?  Oh wait, according to her RPs don't count or don't even qualify.  Nathan liked her, he just wishes the last Discord conversation he had with her didn't end with him looking like a fool for not knowing how viruses work,  and he wishes she could have just been more straightforward, that's why he vilified her on Reddit and Quora,  because it sounded like she hated him as opposed to feel bad for him.  Then again she did question whether or not Nathan was his real name even though she herself changed her username/alias just as many times as Lady Gaga changing her outfits,  was she even a real woman?  Because it seems that she may have been lying to everyone the whole time.

It's just that her 'friend' was kind of a rude prick to Nathan and to me. I'm sorry but you don't tell me how to do my job, do you think I enjoy berating you and treating you like you're my father's evil ex-girlfriend?   No, I don't I don't like having to call people out.  Yes, this guy was a hypocrite for telling us to leave him alone only to tell us if we wanted to rant about him we should do it to his face and called my rants pathetic but i'm not going to say to his faace how much of a petty, petulant whiny brat he is and that I felt like a fucking moron for the whole misreading his tagline as 'i'd fuck a corpse', I was seeing shit that wasn't there, okay? And it was a fucking joke.  The dude couldn't take a joke, then again...he used 'Kim there are people that dying' to bully Nathan for doing something that wasn't even covid related. I'm sorry but who would want to be friends with a douchebag like that?

 I know I know, we all can be assholes, Nathan was an asshole and I was one too, it's just there has to be a better method of coping than letting that little voice inside you tell you to hate someone. It's why I cannot deal with being blocked, because I take it as a sign that the person in general hates me...I have feelings damn it.   When that happens I take it as 'welp, this person hates my guts even though they have a good reason to',  when a friend leaves me I take it as 'welp, time to hate THEIR guts.'  I'm sorry for acting like this,  I wish there was a better way.

I wish that I didn't have to act like that. I wish I could just see this person I admire's work without having to stoop to illegal means, I know I sound creepily obsessed with them, but it's not fair...it's not fair they get the good characters that I so want to see transformations of people into like Pete, Ratigan and Phil and I cannot comment on them because of what I have done.  Yes I vilified them but only because I was shocked to hear about the blocking situation, and quite frankly yeah I dragged them and their boyfriends/lovers into this mess,  trying to act like it's never my fault is never a smart idea.  Yes it is all my fault,  I am a terrible person, it will never go away until I realize that.

If they want me to leave them alone, I will. I won't contact them anymore, and I won't berate them or vilify them since they have clearly suffered enough.