Misery From Within
Misery From Within.
Annie Wilkes TG.
NOTE:
This is a first person perspective tg story of my character Nathan into Annie Wilkes from Misery and this is mostly fictional and has elements of MC in it. This also uses elements of the song 'Mad World' by Tears For Fears and 'Nobody's Home' by Avril Lavigne. And as a word of warning, this is a very sad story.
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Hi there...it's me, come a little closer and i'll tell you all a story. What's the matter are you scared? It's okay, don't be frightened. I won't hurt you, i'm your number one fan. You can trust me, I would never harm you in anyway. Please, just listen to what I have to tell you. What? What do you mean you don't know if you can trust me? I'm friendly...come on, what could possibly go wrong here?
No...wait, please don't run away - it's only me...or at least I think it's still me. I know I may look and sound and act like Annie Wilkes right now but I would never harm you, because I care and I wouldn't hurt anyone. Aaaw come on, don't be a dirty birdy. That's it, a little closer now...it's okay. My story begins with two dreams/visions I had, one dream involved me trying to contact Jay Leno only to find there was this imposter or evil version of him that pretty much hated me and called me a stalker just because of the letters I sent him and by him I meant the real Jay Leno NOT the aforementioned evil version.
The real Leno obviously must have been kidnapped or something, because there was no way that this guy was the real deal at all. The Leno I know is a kind and misunderstood soul who is no doubt very nice to his fans, not like this at all. It just made me cry for so many reasons, the second vision/dream is the one i'm about to tell you. In this dream I was wondering through this library of sorts and checking out the various interactive programs, there were so many sections to choose from. I remember heading through the horror section to the Stephen King section to see if there were any Stephen King centric programs, just by chance I saw a Misery related one and they were showing the movie. I remember scoffing at this one person trying to audition for the Annie Wilkes part, thinking that there's no way someone like that would be able to nail that. That's when I decided to give it a try, since my friends told me that I did a good impression of Kathy Bates as Annie - I decided to give it ago and - luckily I was chosen, but then I started regretting it afterwards - as I started to become her.
Sure enough though, this vision turned out to be very real - you see, one night I was on my way home when I stumbled upon the library from the vision. It was just as big as I remembered it to be, and just as impressive too. I made my way towards the entrance, the doors of the library opened as if by supernatural magic and I was whisked away into it.
"Woah! Now that was definitely supernatural..."
Once I was inside the library, I decided to have a look around - going through the fantasy section, heading through the sci fi section and towards the Stephen King section. All around me were familiar faces, and tales of worn out places. Treading quickly as I made my paces, I walked through the Stephen King section. A small mouse resembling the one from the Green Mile was seen scurrying around as I toured this specific section, there was one part of the section that I knew had to be around - the Misery area.
"Here we are...Stephen King section. Perfect."
The Misery area was right ahead, I made a dash for it before heading over to where the role auditions were - Misery had always been one of my favorite horror movies and it was because of that movie and later Fried Green Tomatoes and AHS that i'd become a fan of actress Kathy Bates who I always thought was beautiful despite being on the portly side. And as much as I felt bad for Paul Sheldon, I felt slightly badder for Annie Wilkes. True, she was an overly obsessive fan but you could sense that she felt more than just a little bit lonely. Although I couldn't exactly tell you why she felt that way, or why she felt it everyday.
I turned to take a glance at the woman who was trying out for the part of Annie, she wasn't trying hard enough in my opinion and it just felt off, that wasn't what i'd be looking for in an Annie Wilkes. I sighed as I made my way over to the try-out area.
"Excuse me...but I believe that performance was a bit flat. I mean where's the fury, where's the insanity? Where's the mood-swinging? And where the heck is the delivery on that line about the cockadoodie car? Some Annie that is, I bet she'll never get the part. I mean how hard is it to simply do A COCKADOODIE RANT ABOUT A COCKADOODIE CAR!?"
"Wait.. you there..."
"Me?"
"Yeah...you...could you do that again please?"
"Alright..."
"That would be great.."
"That one part about the car or the whole thing?"
"The whole thing.."
"Okay. Luckily i've gotten the entire scene memorized for such an occasion. When I was growing up in Bakersfield, my favorite thing in the whole world was to go to the movies on Saturday afternoons for the chapter plays."
"Cliffhangers.."
"I know that, MR MAN! They also called them serials. I'm not stupid you know. Anway, my favorite was Rocketman and once there was a no-breaks chapter. The bad guys stuck him in a car on a mountain road and knocked him out and started him to his death and he woke up and tried to steer but it jumped off the cliff before he could escaped and it crashed and burned and I was so upset and excited!"
"Woah...you're really good.."
"And the next week, you better believe I was first in line. And they always started with the end of the last week. And there was Rocketman trying to get out, and here comes the cliff - and just before the car went off the cliff - he jumped free! And all the kids cheered. But I didn't cheer. I stood right up and started shouting. THIS ISN'T WHAT HAPPENED LAST WEEK! HAVE ALL YOU GOT AMNESIA? They just cheated us! This isn't fair!"
"Very impressive..."
"HE DIDN'T GET OUT OF THE COCK-A-DOODIE CAR!"
I flailed around, mimicking Kathy Bates's facial expressions and body language used for her portrayal of Annie and that is where the man running the try-outs applauded me and decided that I...had gotten the part. I couldn't believe my eyes or my ears for that matter, I had been chosen to be Annie Wilkes.
"Bravo, bravo! Now THAT's a performance. You're definitely it..."
"I am?"
"Yep....you're our Annie Wilkes!"
"You mean I've got the part?"
"Yep..."
"So now what?"
"Follow me..."
I listened carefully to him as I followed him through a secondary pathway of sorts, as I did - I began to notice an unnatural chill in the air as the weather started getting colder and colder, as I treaded along the path I could feel the ground beneath me being covered in snow as a blizzard struck, I tried as hard as I could to hold on but the man disappeared just as the blizzard struck, leaving me all by my lonesome.
Luckily though the blizzard died down just before I found myself passing out a little, when I awoke from that I found myself in a lodge of sorts - not just any lodge, but Silver Creak lodge in Colorado. I looked around my new surroundings and it didn't take long to notice that I was in Annie Wilkes's house.
"What the? I'm in Annie's house? Okay....this just got weird. Don't panic, Nathan...there must be a reasonable explanation for this. Think, think...think..ah I know, what would Paul Sheldon do? I know..."
Thinking quickly, I ran all around the house in search of means to escape - at first I tried to find the key that Paul had used but it wasn't there, then I tried to unlock the doors but they were all locked and then I thought about going over into the memory lane room to use the phone, but when I got into the memory lane room - I tried to use the phone only to find the line was dead so I feared the worst.
I paced around the room several times and panicked...what was I to do? I was stuck in Annie Wilkes's house...just like Paul Sheldon and there was no way out. I screamed several times before accidentally tripping over and breaking my legs. I keeled over and groaned as I held my legs before heading over to the bedroom.
"Oh that's just great...not only am I stuck in her house but now i've broken my legs too? This truly is Misery. I just hope it doesn't get worse from here. I mean there's no way it could get worse, right?"
Just then...I began to feel uneasy as my stomach growled a few times, as if it was reacting to something I ate but in a supernatural way. But that wasn't all....I began to feel like someone was trying to possess me and it felt bizarre to say the least, but the most bizarre thing however occurred when my skin slowly lost its imperfections and became softer and smoother, almost very feminine in appearance and texture.
I panicked as slowly but surely I started to gain weight, my arms broadening a bit as my hands shifted to become broader but still delicate and feminine - in the process my fingernails grew longer and extended, my dark grey button up shirt with the spider-web insignia on it slowly tightened as my chest, stomach and torso swelled and gained weight, the front of the shirt was straining and it slowly began to tear apart as soon as my back broadened while still gaining a feminine arch, not only that but two large, plus-sized breasts blossomed out on my new chest as the buttons popped off my shirt.
Luckily though my shirt didn't rip entirely, instead it extended and reformed into a grey, woolen pinafore dress of sorts with a denim layer on top of it. I panicked down at my new outfit and gasped in horror at what was happening to me...I was wearing Annie's outfit which only could have meant one thing.
"Oh no....i'm turning into Annie Wilkes too? Just when I thought it couldn't get worse, it is getting worse and it's happening to me. If I knew that this would be happening, then I probably wouldn't have offered to play her..."
I panicked several times as the transformation progressed, this time I could feel my hips expanding and swelling as my rear expanded as well, my legs broadening while becoming just like my arms and my feet broadened while becoming dainty and female in appearance and shape, in the process my shoes morphed themselves into a pair of sensible black shoes - I shuddered a little as my privates retracted and reformed into a more feminine set.
"Oh my goodness....this can't be real."
At this point....it was getting increasingly difficult for me to think properly, as my thoughts and memories started altering in various ways - things like family and friends being replaced with the memories and thoughts of the character I was turning into...yep, I was getting Annie Wilkes's memories as well. I panicked several times as my shoulders broadened while becoming feminine, I shuddered a little as I found myself shrinking in height to 5'3.
Looking at my new build, I could tell that I weighed about 214lbs and had a very portly build that made me look kind of homely, as hard as I tried to fight the process I just couldn't...especially when Annie's sweet-natured southern-accented voice echoing in my mind, as if she was telling it was going to be okay.
"No....I must fight this. I'm not Annie Wilkes...i'm Nathan Forester, i'm a scientist - not a psychopath. I'm Nathan, not Annie...i'm Nathan, not Annie! Somebody please help me, please!"
I groaned several times as the changes continued to progress, a necklace in the form of a cross wrapped itself around my neck as my neckline shifted to become more feminine, I squirmed several times as I tried to stop myself from becoming even more like her - and now that I was becoming Annie I was even starting to lose my mind. It was just as I feared, she was taking over me and I was mentally and physically becoming her in the process, I found it kind of funny and also kind of scary and kind of sad. That I was becoming Annie although she tells me that it's not that bad. And there was nobody I could turn to so i'm stuck in her very very...maaad world.
"I must keep on trying....must not let her win."
I closed my eyes and hoped this was all a nightmare and that I wasn't really becoming Annie, but sadly it wasn't - it was very real and it was very frightening for me. I had never been turned into a villain before except when I was the Hessian Horseman and I feared that i'd end up becoming completely evil as a result. I panicked a little bit more as my hair grew longer but took on a very neat style and turned a darker shade of brown. I tried to remember what it was like prior to all of this but all that I could remember was something about an author named Paul. Paul? Oh, Paul Sheldon! How I love him so much, especially his Misery books. But I thought it was really stupid when he killed off my beloved Misery Chastain like that. I mean he MURDERED MY MISERY! And no she didn't just slip away...he did it, he killed her off! But then he brought her back...hurray!
But when he did it the first time I felt like he was cheating. I mean he put in that an experimental blood transfusion saved her life. It's like when I was growing up in Bakersfield and I used to go to the movies for the chapter plays on Saturdays. I know they're called 'cliffhangers' too, Mr Man i'm not stupid you know! They also called them serials. My favorite was always Rocketman and there was one that was a no-breaks chapter where the bad guys locked him in his car on a mountain road and knocked him out and started him to his death. And he woke up and tried to steel but it jumped off a cliff before he could escape. That car crashed and burned and I was so upset and excited...yep, you better believe I was first in line when the next one started the week after. And they always started with the end of the last week too. And there he was trying to get out of the car, and here comes the cliff - but when the car went off the cliff - he jumped free and escaped. All the kids cheered. But I didn't cheer, oh no. I stood right up and started shouting. "THIS ISN'T WHAT HAPPENED LAST WEEK? HAVE YOU ALL GOT AMNESIA? THEY CHEATED US! THIS ISN'T FAIR! HE DIDN'T GET OUT OF THE COCKADOODIE CAR!"
Oh, i'm so sorry for acting up like that and making everything all oogy...it's just well at this point, Annie's memories and personality were definitely taking over me and it was becoming even more difficult to resist being like her and you know what? I didn't mind it at all. You know, it's like I told Paul...it's for the best. I sighed several times as eyelashes formed around my eyes, my eyes themselves widened and turned from brown to blue as my eyebrows thinned, my nose shrank a little as my lips swelled and took on a feminine shape.
"Maybe....I shouldn't fight this after all. Maybe it's...for the best."
I could feel my facial features morphing and reshaping themselves as my head shape altered to be more oval or heart-shaped while my face became chubby and sweet-looking just like my homely build, my panicked expression of horror reforming itself into a semi reassuring smile as my features continued morphing themselves. If I didn't know better, I could have sworn I was resembling that wonderfully talented actress Kathy Bates. Which definitely suited me in my opinion since well...I was becoming Annie Wilkes.
I sighed a few more times as my face finished morphing and reshaping itself, and in a few seconds later I bore a striking resemblance to Kathy Bates as Annie Wilkes and yet...I was okay with it, true I had tried to fight it before. But now I realize that I was a right dirty birdy for trying to resist what now seemed as a natural thing. I sighed as my voice altered, growing higher in pitch but also shifting to become feminine with a tough but very warm and semi-motherly tone to it, in the process developing a southern accent.
"I don't know why I was trying to fight this process earlier and making everything all oogy like that. I mean look at me, this just seems natural to me. I'm becoming Annie...and yet...i've always felt like i've always been her in someway."
All of the memories and thoughts of mine prior to this became a complete blur, but it wasn't like I needed them anyway since I have these much better new ones. I don't know anyone named Nathan, but I do know someone named Annie...and that's me. Anne Marie Wilkes Dugan, but everyone calls me Annie. Or if you want to get personal I get called 'angel of death' and 'dragon-lady' quite often.
With a few more mind and personality changes my transformation was complete, I was now Annie Wilkes as played by Kathy Bates. And you know what? It's perfect. I am going to enjoy this and I hope that Paul knows how much I adore him.
"You know....I could really enjoy this."
I smiled in a very cheery manner as I walked through into the memory lane room, I know what most people must be thinking of me - I know I must have left that old scrapbook out, but it's okay really....I wouldn't harm anyone. I'm a nurse after all and it's my job to heal the injured and poor dears that need my love and care - including Paul. That man doesn't know how grateful he is to be with someone like me.
"Ah, this is perfect. I don't know why I originally thought this was a terrible idea. I've always been like this and i'm perfectly okay with it. Forgive me if my thinking is a little bit muddy at times, it's just...you know."
And so there you have it, that's my story and how I became who I am. You have absolutely nothing to be afraid, because i'm not as bad as everyone says I am. You're going to be perfectly fine, there's nothing to worry about. After all, i'll take good care of you and make you feel better. Don't be scared, don't run away, you shouldn't be so scared of me, you poor dear, everything is going to be okay - after all i'm your number one fan.
Annie Wilkes TG.
NOTE:
This is a first person perspective tg story of my character Nathan into Annie Wilkes from Misery and this is mostly fictional and has elements of MC in it. This also uses elements of the song 'Mad World' by Tears For Fears and 'Nobody's Home' by Avril Lavigne. And as a word of warning, this is a very sad story.
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Hi there...it's me, come a little closer and i'll tell you all a story. What's the matter are you scared? It's okay, don't be frightened. I won't hurt you, i'm your number one fan. You can trust me, I would never harm you in anyway. Please, just listen to what I have to tell you. What? What do you mean you don't know if you can trust me? I'm friendly...come on, what could possibly go wrong here?
No...wait, please don't run away - it's only me...or at least I think it's still me. I know I may look and sound and act like Annie Wilkes right now but I would never harm you, because I care and I wouldn't hurt anyone. Aaaw come on, don't be a dirty birdy. That's it, a little closer now...it's okay. My story begins with two dreams/visions I had, one dream involved me trying to contact Jay Leno only to find there was this imposter or evil version of him that pretty much hated me and called me a stalker just because of the letters I sent him and by him I meant the real Jay Leno NOT the aforementioned evil version.
The real Leno obviously must have been kidnapped or something, because there was no way that this guy was the real deal at all. The Leno I know is a kind and misunderstood soul who is no doubt very nice to his fans, not like this at all. It just made me cry for so many reasons, the second vision/dream is the one i'm about to tell you. In this dream I was wondering through this library of sorts and checking out the various interactive programs, there were so many sections to choose from. I remember heading through the horror section to the Stephen King section to see if there were any Stephen King centric programs, just by chance I saw a Misery related one and they were showing the movie. I remember scoffing at this one person trying to audition for the Annie Wilkes part, thinking that there's no way someone like that would be able to nail that. That's when I decided to give it a try, since my friends told me that I did a good impression of Kathy Bates as Annie - I decided to give it ago and - luckily I was chosen, but then I started regretting it afterwards - as I started to become her.
Sure enough though, this vision turned out to be very real - you see, one night I was on my way home when I stumbled upon the library from the vision. It was just as big as I remembered it to be, and just as impressive too. I made my way towards the entrance, the doors of the library opened as if by supernatural magic and I was whisked away into it.
"Woah! Now that was definitely supernatural..."
Once I was inside the library, I decided to have a look around - going through the fantasy section, heading through the sci fi section and towards the Stephen King section. All around me were familiar faces, and tales of worn out places. Treading quickly as I made my paces, I walked through the Stephen King section. A small mouse resembling the one from the Green Mile was seen scurrying around as I toured this specific section, there was one part of the section that I knew had to be around - the Misery area.
"Here we are...Stephen King section. Perfect."
The Misery area was right ahead, I made a dash for it before heading over to where the role auditions were - Misery had always been one of my favorite horror movies and it was because of that movie and later Fried Green Tomatoes and AHS that i'd become a fan of actress Kathy Bates who I always thought was beautiful despite being on the portly side. And as much as I felt bad for Paul Sheldon, I felt slightly badder for Annie Wilkes. True, she was an overly obsessive fan but you could sense that she felt more than just a little bit lonely. Although I couldn't exactly tell you why she felt that way, or why she felt it everyday.
I turned to take a glance at the woman who was trying out for the part of Annie, she wasn't trying hard enough in my opinion and it just felt off, that wasn't what i'd be looking for in an Annie Wilkes. I sighed as I made my way over to the try-out area.
"Excuse me...but I believe that performance was a bit flat. I mean where's the fury, where's the insanity? Where's the mood-swinging? And where the heck is the delivery on that line about the cockadoodie car? Some Annie that is, I bet she'll never get the part. I mean how hard is it to simply do A COCKADOODIE RANT ABOUT A COCKADOODIE CAR!?"
"Wait.. you there..."
"Me?"
"Yeah...you...could you do that again please?"
"Alright..."
"That would be great.."
"That one part about the car or the whole thing?"
"The whole thing.."
"Okay. Luckily i've gotten the entire scene memorized for such an occasion. When I was growing up in Bakersfield, my favorite thing in the whole world was to go to the movies on Saturday afternoons for the chapter plays."
"Cliffhangers.."
"I know that, MR MAN! They also called them serials. I'm not stupid you know. Anway, my favorite was Rocketman and once there was a no-breaks chapter. The bad guys stuck him in a car on a mountain road and knocked him out and started him to his death and he woke up and tried to steer but it jumped off the cliff before he could escaped and it crashed and burned and I was so upset and excited!"
"Woah...you're really good.."
"And the next week, you better believe I was first in line. And they always started with the end of the last week. And there was Rocketman trying to get out, and here comes the cliff - and just before the car went off the cliff - he jumped free! And all the kids cheered. But I didn't cheer. I stood right up and started shouting. THIS ISN'T WHAT HAPPENED LAST WEEK! HAVE ALL YOU GOT AMNESIA? They just cheated us! This isn't fair!"
"Very impressive..."
"HE DIDN'T GET OUT OF THE COCK-A-DOODIE CAR!"
I flailed around, mimicking Kathy Bates's facial expressions and body language used for her portrayal of Annie and that is where the man running the try-outs applauded me and decided that I...had gotten the part. I couldn't believe my eyes or my ears for that matter, I had been chosen to be Annie Wilkes.
"Bravo, bravo! Now THAT's a performance. You're definitely it..."
"I am?"
"Yep....you're our Annie Wilkes!"
"You mean I've got the part?"
"Yep..."
"So now what?"
"Follow me..."
I listened carefully to him as I followed him through a secondary pathway of sorts, as I did - I began to notice an unnatural chill in the air as the weather started getting colder and colder, as I treaded along the path I could feel the ground beneath me being covered in snow as a blizzard struck, I tried as hard as I could to hold on but the man disappeared just as the blizzard struck, leaving me all by my lonesome.
Luckily though the blizzard died down just before I found myself passing out a little, when I awoke from that I found myself in a lodge of sorts - not just any lodge, but Silver Creak lodge in Colorado. I looked around my new surroundings and it didn't take long to notice that I was in Annie Wilkes's house.
"What the? I'm in Annie's house? Okay....this just got weird. Don't panic, Nathan...there must be a reasonable explanation for this. Think, think...think..ah I know, what would Paul Sheldon do? I know..."
Thinking quickly, I ran all around the house in search of means to escape - at first I tried to find the key that Paul had used but it wasn't there, then I tried to unlock the doors but they were all locked and then I thought about going over into the memory lane room to use the phone, but when I got into the memory lane room - I tried to use the phone only to find the line was dead so I feared the worst.
I paced around the room several times and panicked...what was I to do? I was stuck in Annie Wilkes's house...just like Paul Sheldon and there was no way out. I screamed several times before accidentally tripping over and breaking my legs. I keeled over and groaned as I held my legs before heading over to the bedroom.
"Oh that's just great...not only am I stuck in her house but now i've broken my legs too? This truly is Misery. I just hope it doesn't get worse from here. I mean there's no way it could get worse, right?"
Just then...I began to feel uneasy as my stomach growled a few times, as if it was reacting to something I ate but in a supernatural way. But that wasn't all....I began to feel like someone was trying to possess me and it felt bizarre to say the least, but the most bizarre thing however occurred when my skin slowly lost its imperfections and became softer and smoother, almost very feminine in appearance and texture.
I panicked as slowly but surely I started to gain weight, my arms broadening a bit as my hands shifted to become broader but still delicate and feminine - in the process my fingernails grew longer and extended, my dark grey button up shirt with the spider-web insignia on it slowly tightened as my chest, stomach and torso swelled and gained weight, the front of the shirt was straining and it slowly began to tear apart as soon as my back broadened while still gaining a feminine arch, not only that but two large, plus-sized breasts blossomed out on my new chest as the buttons popped off my shirt.
Luckily though my shirt didn't rip entirely, instead it extended and reformed into a grey, woolen pinafore dress of sorts with a denim layer on top of it. I panicked down at my new outfit and gasped in horror at what was happening to me...I was wearing Annie's outfit which only could have meant one thing.
"Oh no....i'm turning into Annie Wilkes too? Just when I thought it couldn't get worse, it is getting worse and it's happening to me. If I knew that this would be happening, then I probably wouldn't have offered to play her..."
I panicked several times as the transformation progressed, this time I could feel my hips expanding and swelling as my rear expanded as well, my legs broadening while becoming just like my arms and my feet broadened while becoming dainty and female in appearance and shape, in the process my shoes morphed themselves into a pair of sensible black shoes - I shuddered a little as my privates retracted and reformed into a more feminine set.
"Oh my goodness....this can't be real."
At this point....it was getting increasingly difficult for me to think properly, as my thoughts and memories started altering in various ways - things like family and friends being replaced with the memories and thoughts of the character I was turning into...yep, I was getting Annie Wilkes's memories as well. I panicked several times as my shoulders broadened while becoming feminine, I shuddered a little as I found myself shrinking in height to 5'3.
Looking at my new build, I could tell that I weighed about 214lbs and had a very portly build that made me look kind of homely, as hard as I tried to fight the process I just couldn't...especially when Annie's sweet-natured southern-accented voice echoing in my mind, as if she was telling it was going to be okay.
"No....I must fight this. I'm not Annie Wilkes...i'm Nathan Forester, i'm a scientist - not a psychopath. I'm Nathan, not Annie...i'm Nathan, not Annie! Somebody please help me, please!"
I groaned several times as the changes continued to progress, a necklace in the form of a cross wrapped itself around my neck as my neckline shifted to become more feminine, I squirmed several times as I tried to stop myself from becoming even more like her - and now that I was becoming Annie I was even starting to lose my mind. It was just as I feared, she was taking over me and I was mentally and physically becoming her in the process, I found it kind of funny and also kind of scary and kind of sad. That I was becoming Annie although she tells me that it's not that bad. And there was nobody I could turn to so i'm stuck in her very very...maaad world.
"I must keep on trying....must not let her win."
I closed my eyes and hoped this was all a nightmare and that I wasn't really becoming Annie, but sadly it wasn't - it was very real and it was very frightening for me. I had never been turned into a villain before except when I was the Hessian Horseman and I feared that i'd end up becoming completely evil as a result. I panicked a little bit more as my hair grew longer but took on a very neat style and turned a darker shade of brown. I tried to remember what it was like prior to all of this but all that I could remember was something about an author named Paul. Paul? Oh, Paul Sheldon! How I love him so much, especially his Misery books. But I thought it was really stupid when he killed off my beloved Misery Chastain like that. I mean he MURDERED MY MISERY! And no she didn't just slip away...he did it, he killed her off! But then he brought her back...hurray!
But when he did it the first time I felt like he was cheating. I mean he put in that an experimental blood transfusion saved her life. It's like when I was growing up in Bakersfield and I used to go to the movies for the chapter plays on Saturdays. I know they're called 'cliffhangers' too, Mr Man i'm not stupid you know! They also called them serials. My favorite was always Rocketman and there was one that was a no-breaks chapter where the bad guys locked him in his car on a mountain road and knocked him out and started him to his death. And he woke up and tried to steel but it jumped off a cliff before he could escape. That car crashed and burned and I was so upset and excited...yep, you better believe I was first in line when the next one started the week after. And they always started with the end of the last week too. And there he was trying to get out of the car, and here comes the cliff - but when the car went off the cliff - he jumped free and escaped. All the kids cheered. But I didn't cheer, oh no. I stood right up and started shouting. "THIS ISN'T WHAT HAPPENED LAST WEEK? HAVE YOU ALL GOT AMNESIA? THEY CHEATED US! THIS ISN'T FAIR! HE DIDN'T GET OUT OF THE COCKADOODIE CAR!"
Oh, i'm so sorry for acting up like that and making everything all oogy...it's just well at this point, Annie's memories and personality were definitely taking over me and it was becoming even more difficult to resist being like her and you know what? I didn't mind it at all. You know, it's like I told Paul...it's for the best. I sighed several times as eyelashes formed around my eyes, my eyes themselves widened and turned from brown to blue as my eyebrows thinned, my nose shrank a little as my lips swelled and took on a feminine shape.
"Maybe....I shouldn't fight this after all. Maybe it's...for the best."
I could feel my facial features morphing and reshaping themselves as my head shape altered to be more oval or heart-shaped while my face became chubby and sweet-looking just like my homely build, my panicked expression of horror reforming itself into a semi reassuring smile as my features continued morphing themselves. If I didn't know better, I could have sworn I was resembling that wonderfully talented actress Kathy Bates. Which definitely suited me in my opinion since well...I was becoming Annie Wilkes.
I sighed a few more times as my face finished morphing and reshaping itself, and in a few seconds later I bore a striking resemblance to Kathy Bates as Annie Wilkes and yet...I was okay with it, true I had tried to fight it before. But now I realize that I was a right dirty birdy for trying to resist what now seemed as a natural thing. I sighed as my voice altered, growing higher in pitch but also shifting to become feminine with a tough but very warm and semi-motherly tone to it, in the process developing a southern accent.
"I don't know why I was trying to fight this process earlier and making everything all oogy like that. I mean look at me, this just seems natural to me. I'm becoming Annie...and yet...i've always felt like i've always been her in someway."
All of the memories and thoughts of mine prior to this became a complete blur, but it wasn't like I needed them anyway since I have these much better new ones. I don't know anyone named Nathan, but I do know someone named Annie...and that's me. Anne Marie Wilkes Dugan, but everyone calls me Annie. Or if you want to get personal I get called 'angel of death' and 'dragon-lady' quite often.
With a few more mind and personality changes my transformation was complete, I was now Annie Wilkes as played by Kathy Bates. And you know what? It's perfect. I am going to enjoy this and I hope that Paul knows how much I adore him.
"You know....I could really enjoy this."
I smiled in a very cheery manner as I walked through into the memory lane room, I know what most people must be thinking of me - I know I must have left that old scrapbook out, but it's okay really....I wouldn't harm anyone. I'm a nurse after all and it's my job to heal the injured and poor dears that need my love and care - including Paul. That man doesn't know how grateful he is to be with someone like me.
"Ah, this is perfect. I don't know why I originally thought this was a terrible idea. I've always been like this and i'm perfectly okay with it. Forgive me if my thinking is a little bit muddy at times, it's just...you know."
And so there you have it, that's my story and how I became who I am. You have absolutely nothing to be afraid, because i'm not as bad as everyone says I am. You're going to be perfectly fine, there's nothing to worry about. After all, i'll take good care of you and make you feel better. Don't be scared, don't run away, you shouldn't be so scared of me, you poor dear, everything is going to be okay - after all i'm your number one fan.
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